Random Musings

It was going to be her first time with a girl. Is was my first time attempting to switch. The lead up had been amazing. I had gotten myself and her off on teasing her and telling her what we were going to do with her. Finally the night had arrived. I stand in the apartment dressed in my lingerie and little skirt. I have my 6inch stilettos so she can hear my footsteps when she's brought in blindfolded, by her dom, in a few moments. I've sprayed my favorite perfume, got music playing, and fuck am i nervous as hell. The door opens, and he leads her in. I force myself to walk briskly over to her, my heals clicking loudly on the floor. I reach up and kiss her passionately. Her breath catches and I throb as I place the collar around her neck. Her legs almost give way and her dom has to hold her up, as we both undress her and take in every inch of her amazing body with our eyes, hands and mouths. Her body responded, her legs buckled and the groans of pleasure as we took a nipp

I am strong but I am soft. I am a survivor but no victim I am real but no better or worse than the next person.  My journey has made to realize many things about life, people, and myself. Here's 3 things on my mind at the moment. First thing is that no matter who, or how, someone does wrong by me, I will not stop being the caring open honest person I am. Second I am worthy of common respect, and I no longer allow myself to be treated with anything less that respect. Humiliate me, degrade me, use me as your fucktoy, but show me decent everyday respect. Thirdly some people are just assholes. It doesn't matter what you do or say...they are just assholes. I aim to leave every person I meet better than when I found them. I don't always succeed. But it's my aim. And it's a aim that I carry in both my vanilla life, and also my kinky life. 

Having only discovered my naturally submissive self recently, i totally believed i was 100% submissive. It is my comfy place, giving over total control is easy for me, it drives me wild, it gets me off to be a good girl, cumslut, and fuck toy. I recognize that the sub in me has always been there. I can look back and see it so clearly and I regret not letting her out when I was younger. So If you have asked me 2 weeks ago, whether there was any part of me that could be dominant you would have heard a "fuck no" out of my mouth with 100% truth and openness. Ask me today and I say "mind blowingly yes" there's a little in there. I started this year out with the goal of being my most authentic self. In some areas I've failed and in others I've exceeded my own expectations of myself. So when I was asked if i could find some dom in me, to give a very sexy sub, her first girl experience...I had to dig deep and challenge myself to find it. Because to have aut