Maybe a little dom...

Having only discovered my naturally submissive self recently, i totally believed i was 100% submissive. It is my comfy place, giving over total control is easy for me, it drives me wild, it gets me off to be a good girl, cumslut, and fuck toy. I recognize that the sub in me has always been there. I can look back and see it so clearly and I regret not letting her out when I was younger.

So If you have asked me 2 weeks ago, whether there was any part of me that could be dominant you would have heard a "fuck no" out of my mouth with 100% truth and openness. Ask me today and I say "mind blowingly yes" there's a little in there.

I started this year out with the goal of being my most authentic self. In some areas I've failed and in others I've exceeded my own expectations of myself. So when I was asked if i could find some dom in me, to give a very sexy sub, her first girl experience...I had to dig deep and challenge myself to find it. Because to have authenticity I have to explore my self to find that.

And omg did I get off on teasing her on snapchat and the build up to out play Date. I was out of my comfort zone and it got me off many times. It was so fucking hot knowing the feeling and nerves she would have. The anticipation. And yes I wanted to make it awesome.

Saturday night finally arrives...

I wait dressed in black and blue lingerie. suspenders, stockings and 6inch stilettos. A tiny black skirt that barely covered my bare ass. I could feel the moisture dripping from my exposed pussy, running down my legs as i waited for the text that they were on their way up.

I was about to experience something totally out of my comfort zone. I was going to be dominant. My friend was bringing his fuck buddy sub over, my bday pressy. She'd never been with a girl and i wanted her pussy.

Standing waiting, ready, shaking...my heart skipped a beat and the nerves and excitement kicked in. Fuck i was dripping wet and so ready when she heard the key in the door.

I had tapped into my own expirences as a sub and i set the scene. Music playing. Sprayed perfume, and the heals i wore would make the best noise on the tiles. I so wanted to overload her sensors. She would be so nervous I know I was.

She was led into my room blindfolded....And I got off over and over again on playing with this sexy sub. And omg she was a natural...And such an awesome little fucktoy.

So today I say....I'm a sub and will always be a sub. But I'm no longer closed to the idea that someone might enable me to be dominant again.

Have I said lately that this journey is fucking amazing. New experiences, awesome memories and a new understanding of myself. 


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  1. Ouradventurecl20 November 2019 at 23:22

    I am submissive / subsequious. No doubting that. But I also know if given permission, i could and would dominate. Similarly to you, i would dominate and create from my submissive self. Doing those extra things, from a place of already understanding, that as a sub you just need done or given sometimes.

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