Random Musings

When i enter the room, She is laying on her back totally naked...except for the blindfold covering her eyes. Her arms are tied to each of the bedposts. He's seduced her there before i arrive....she knows im joining but not when or how. Ive snuck in quietly into the motel room without my shoes and i remove the only item of clothing im wearing, dropping my dress as i walk toward the room. He briefly stops eating her delish looking pussy and looks at me and smiles beckoning me to join him with just a look. I move in gently beside him, and she jumps as i remark to him...'i need to taste that delish looking pussy' he stops and kisses me deeply and allows me to clean her cum from his mouth. She is writhing on the bed now and i gently kiss then bite her inner thigh as he watches me. And he hold her legs for me as i delve deep into her juicy pussy with my tounge and then my fingers till she squirts all over my face. He stops me now and kisses me and licking my face clean.

I am unbalanced I am lonely I am lost I feel a little crazy I feel like a caged animal I feel so alone Yet.... I am insatiable I am sexually driven I am open minded I need to be known I need to be understood I need to be wanted and desired But... I am real and authentic I am adaptable and reliable I am a person of integrity I thrive when challanged I thrive on praise and adoration I thrive when i can be me So... I am learning and growing I am willing to be a better person I am an open book I want joy and excitement I want to expirence everything I want to be totaly appreciated for who i am

Its Christmas day and ive had the most amazing day with 2 of my kids. A great night out with the oldest last night. And dinner with the daughter and bf tomorrow night..what a truly blessed and grateful mum i am. Im sitting outside relaxing and i realize that i have this deep ache and longing inside. And no im not talking about the constant one between my legs....im talking about a whole body and mind need..a longing to be... Owned but totally free Adored but degraded Cared for but punished and tested I need to be desired, needed, wanted mind and body I crave being the good little slave pleasing her master. I dream constantly of new expirences and repeating favorite one.....it consumes my mind and body But most of all i ache for the chemistry and connection i recently experienced....the mindblowing, from that very first moment he looked at me, i became a silly little girl...to the electrifying first brush of his kiss on my back....i was his.....all his. Ive never been so tota

I dream of the day this reads 'i have'.... Until then the position is vacant I ne ed... To be desired, wanted and needed I want... To be on his mind every spare moment, to have him lost in thoughts and fantasies of all the things he wants to do to and with me I crave... The praise and rewards for being a good girl I need... to hear his thoughts and desires I want... To hear his troubles and worries I crave... his total dominence and care I need... The mind blowing chemistry and connection I want... To be owned, used and enjoyed, mind and body So now that i know....how the hell to i find it.

Id done my usual tease on snapchat, sent the vids that shock or inspire. And he was certainly keen to meet me. I had a feeling it would be fun but didnt think my subself would be satisfied, but as long as not vanilla i can have pure fun. Our first scheduled meet was cancelled due to family stuff.. .damn vanilla life. So when he messaged me and suggested a sunday afternoon of shower,food, sex repeat, actually i suggested that would be an awesome way to spend the afternoon, and he said he was on his way. It had been sometime since id had that. The random and spontaneous encounter. I had already shaved and prepared the evening before as we were going to meet then. So i dressed in my sexy cute little shorts and a very fitted singlet. I felt cute summer sexy, exactly what i thought would be perfect. He arrived and i greeted him outside, pussy pulsing as he was even sexier in person and the smile as he looked at me sent my body into overdrive. As my housemate was home i suggest we go t

Its been over 9months since ive expirenced or written about sub frenzy. And omg am i suffering with it now. I guess its been 9months since the sub/slave in me was enticed, devoured and challanged. I only realized today...as my master ive pleased for the last week or so, left for a month or more, that i am in sub frenzy. Ive known about it, written about it and spoken to people about it, yet i didnt see what it was in myself. My mind will think of nothing else but how and when i get to be his slave again. Thankfully I have some options to satisfy some very real and intense needs...but im smart enough to know that the slave is going to be left wanting. That feeling of being left wanting although having cum lots and physicaly totally satisfiied, has plagued me over the last 9 months. Oh dont get me wrong ive had amazing sexual experiences, ive even had my all time top time with a chick and i was dominant. Ive met amazing people, been used well, cum lots, learnt to deepthroat,

Today i understand myself even better...but does it help me. Fuck no. Im toey, bratty even, and thats not who i am. I feel like ive begged him to use me once more before he leaves, no i have begged and been totally bratty about it, spent the last few days pouting that i cant have him amd his cock. I dont like this me. I desperately desire his demands and commands. But now i realize that the connection and chemistry he and i shared is exactly what i crave..i had it once before ( believe me when i say ive lost many many hours looking for it) i enjoyed 8months of regular playdates. Satisfying the absolute need to be 110% myself with ease and comfort. And when this one walked through my door for the most mind blowing amazing sunday i was like a junkie taking that first hit. I want more, more and much more. So now what...i know its possible to have and i want it so bad....i love being so tottaly free and uninhibited...the best version of myself as a whole person. I guess i have to l